I am a changed woman!  I feel it in every bone in my body and it’s so exciting! I feel like a baby deer learning to walk! EVERYTHING I say or do is coming from a different perspective than before.  From what I watch, what I read, to what I eat, what I say….even what I listen to on the radio…

I’m so eager to find like-minded people and go into deep, meaningful, POSITIVE, powerful conversations with them!  I find myself scowering my friends list to see if anyone JUMPS out at me as possibly being of like mind.  Not in a snobby way, but in a real way.

This is all great and I don’t plan to change this…However, I am struggling because I’m pretty much the only one in my circle who has had this radical mindset shift.  Therefore, I’m hearing the same old stuff coming from the same negative places and I don’t know what to do about it.

I’ve chosen not to invest a lot of time and confidence in some people because I’ve learned, recently, that if you want to shoot down your big dreams, tell them to a small minded person.  That has resignated with me very deeply so I’m being very choosy with whom I share what.  This sounds cocky and rude but I don’t mean it to.  I haven’t stopped loving or caring for anyone in my life.  However, I believe I can go to the next level and I believe that I have to let go of some to get there.

I pray that I can keep this new me.  I believe that I can.  I will!

OAN, I talked to my mom last night.  This is nothing new.  We are super close.  She’s my best friend in the entire world.  I was nervous to tell her a lot of what I have learned.  I am being very careful about what I share and when so as not to overwhelm people or even myself.  She, of course, wanted to hear all about my ah-ha moments!  We had such a good talk.  I fearfully shared with her what I’ve only shared with 2 other humans (my kids!).  I want to write a book.  Maybe several.  I used to love to write and it’s always been relatively easy for me.  My biggest hiccup is my randomness (as you can tell).  Also I’ve always talked myself out of it because I don’t have a degree, I didn’t take a course, I don’t know big words, etc.  I won’t let that hold me back anymore!

I’m working on a plan!  Self publication!  Save money while I write, self-publish, and see what happens!  I’m not looking to get rich.  I’m just looking to be happy and maybe help people!

My topic is raising parents-from the eyes of a teenager.  A book for teens that would help them to “raise” their parents in a way that would improve their relationship and communication!  I feel like parents and teens both would buy this book.  It’ll take a lot of research and a lot of scenario’s but I’m very excited about it!  Mom said she would have LOVED something that like to have existed when I was a teenage nightmare!  That’s another blog post!

Bye for now,

RR